Jeo's New Year Resolution

Top 10 list of Jeolyn's New Year Resolution

1) WORLD PEACE, No more slashings
2) Give and Take
3) No more quarrels
3) Do well in school when school reopens
4) Study hard
5) Appreciate and love people around me
6) Cut down on both unhealthy habits
7) Spend more time with my family
8) Cut down on shopping and save up the money
9) My own DSLR camera
10) Last but not least, BAGG.

Today marks the last day of 2010, and guess what, I'll be spending it at Bliss, not enjoying, but working. Three years in a row, I've never officially counted down outside with my friends and loved ones. It's getting kinda boring having to work on special occassions all the time whereas others get to enjoy themselves, but double pay so yah. By the end of 2011, I'm gonna accomplish everything on my list. Happy Advance New Year People!

Sorry for hurting you so much, i'm really very sorry.

I'm not looking forward to the New Year. Heart-brokened ttm.

Ohkay, what now?

♥ ACK

My life has been downright awesome for the past few weeks! For now,work has been removed from my dictionary and instead, playing and enjoying is the only thing I can think of. No wonder I've been feeling so broke lately and yah, I've really overspent big time this month:( No more shopping for the next two months. Gonna really save up! December is going to end in a blink of an eye, the start of a new year, the start of something new. I'm going to do up my new year resolution soon! Many many things I want to do in the upcoming new year! OMG! WHANAILHJ!

"You never fail to make me smile. ack."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

I'm literally rotting at home on a Saturday afternoon. Whatever it is, first things first, Happy Birthday Daddy! Hope you enjoyed the small celebration, Steamboat! Naise! I'm the only one in the family who had two bowls of rice and now I'm bloated, seriously. Secondly, I'm going to town to meet shithead! And might probably be meeting Santa later in the night for dessert? HAHA! I don't know! How awesome would it be if I was able to live my life like this. I dread working naow. I'd rather spend my time at home, like serious shiat. Watch your attitude people. I don't deserve to be treated like "that" at work. I needa break, a break from work, a break from everything. How I wish I could leave Singapore right this moment... If only..

Somehow I'm looking forward to Christmas, having to exchange presents and happiness with my loved ones. The thought of seeing others smile actually brightens up my day :) As usual, will be working at Bliss instead of going out to have fun. Whatever it is, I believe I will still have fun celebrating with my colleagues :) All I want for Christmas is you!

Ohkay fine. I admit that I'm a jerk, a fucking jerk. I don't deserve anyone. I deserve to be left alone, all by myself. Fuck all these stress and tears. I'm going bonkers soon.

HOW?!

Letting fate deciding my decision is bullshit. The decision lies in my hands now. And I really don't know what I can and should do. I've never felt like this before. The feeling is fucked up, big time. All I can do is cry, cry and cry. But I myself know, crying can't solve the problem. But sadly, whenever I think about it, tears just flow down my cheeks like there is no tomorrow. Had a chat with my mother and I told her about it. Whatever is happening to me and is going to happen. She told me to think through about my decision. Someone told me this, "Whatever your decision is, just promise me you'll be happy and you'll never regret." How can I be happy? I'm really on the verge of breaking down. If only I could split myself into two, if only. What should I do????

DILEMMA!

I don't know if I should be happy or upset. Many things have been happening in my life lately and it really screwed up my whole entire life. I'm so sick and tired of everything. What should I do now? I'm in a dilemma. If only I have the courage to end everything once and for all, but sadly, I can't let go. I'm not going to brood over this already. I'll let fate decide, I'll let God make a decision for me. To whoever it may concern, give me a break. Seriously, FML.