Good night sweetheart ♥ Thinking of you much.

Photos with Chinagirl! ♥

好想你，但愿你想我更多。

Good night everyone, Good night baby :)

Finally meeting twinney later on after donkey years, and yes, I miss her like crap! Gonna spam Polaroid when we meet! Don't worry, will definitely update the awesome pictures when I'm free:) I'm home and watching a new drama! Previous one was downright awesome! Many many things I want to get but sadly, I'm officially broke and I mean BROKE. Awesome or what? Should have worked more last month so I wouldn't have to suffer now! Fuck my life! It's Tuesday, which also means four more days before I get to see my boyfriend. So near yet so far. Baby, if you're reading this, I want you to know that I MISS YOU MANY MANY! Can't wait to see him on Saturday! Love you:)

You never stopped appearing on my mind for once.

I saw you, yet I still miss you so much.

I yearn for Saturdays.

Just like that, the Saturday I've been waiting for days is going to end soon. Once again, I'll miss you like crazy. I've to go through all these one more time. Jeolyn, you can do it, I know you can.

To each and everyone of you

Work has been such a bitch lately, the crowd and all, breath taking much. One more month, Bliss is going to be closed, no more Bliss@Punggol Park. It's really sad to know but on the other hand, Bliss is going to be relocated at AMK, Cheng San CC. Bliss would still exist but at a different place with different atmosphere. I'll definitely miss the times I spent with my awesome colleagues before work, during work and after work. You guys made me grow, made me more matured, and not forgetting, made me happier! It's been an awesome 3 years working there with almost the same batch of people. Though there were ups and downs but I'm glad we still stood by each other. This is what I call, true friends. I love you people and don't forget, Jeolyn would always be there for each and everyone of you!

With Love,

JeolynJenny

Awesome! It's saturday!

TGIF ♥

You spin me right round baby right round.

You spin me right round baby right round.

I miss every bit of you.

Once a week, I'll be awfully in love.

I miss my ♥ so fugging much. Saturday, I'll definitely treasure it like I've never done before.

Boy, I really miss you.

"And will never be.."

Pink - Fuckin' Perfect

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty please, if you ever feel like you're nothing
You are perfect to me....

"I was never your Angelina Jolie."

I just want everything to go well and everyone to be happy. I'd choose to go through all these pain alone rather than to see everyone upset. Baby, I promise you, there won't be another time.

I'm so bored I can die now.

Hedley-Perfect

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

I'm in need of money now. Stressful because of money issues. Fucked up shit.

Happy 27th Monthsary Baby Boy. Another month not celebrating on the actual day itself but doesn't matter cause I managed to see you yesterday instead, better than nothing. I'm sorry for my childish behavior last night, sorry for whatever I've done, throwing tantrum and all. Sorry for making you so stressful even after work. I'm sorry I'm not a good girlfriend, sorry for being so useless all the time. I'm sorry.

What have I done wrong? Am I not a good girlfriend? Why is god doing this to me? My life is supposed to be so screwed up? God, please tell me. I feel extremely terrible I want to die now... Tell me, what do you want me to do.

Yet another disappointment.

How I wish she never existed, or rather, how I wish I never existed because I feel terrible now.

I'm home, first time ever so early. It's thursday, we were supposed to have a date, remember? I really miss you, but I know you'll not take the initiative to ask me or rather, you would have forgotten, or probably just tell me you thought I needed time on my own to cool down. Today would be the fifth day not seeing you, rather awkward and uncomfortable but I don't have much of a choice. I never want you to feel that I can't live without you because I know, I'll be taken for granted. I really miss you a whole lot. I really do.

www.pandemic-paranoidness.blogspot.com

The sweetest blog I've ever read from a guy. Awesome.

My whole set of teeth hurts like nobody's business. What the hell did the dentist do to my teeth?! And my whole body hurts cause of badminton?! 痛苦的滋味很不好受。生病的滋味也很不好受。

I've got no life. Miserable much.

我想你。

蕭亞軒 - 错的人

明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃

在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真的真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
可能 在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能 永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我 不願放棄這裡面一點點可能 寧願笨也不想要悔恨
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我相信有點可能

On the verge of giving up

I'm currently jobless in the day thus I've been spending most of my time at home and then work in the evening. Life like this is rather fun too. Having to spend some time alone at home, doing my own stuff and killing time and earning money in the evening. Till today, I still haven't made a decision. What should I do? Omfg. I wonder what have you been doing these few days,who have you been contacting. I may seem dumb but I ain't. I have a rough idea who you have been texting, I know. Whatsapp's a pro. Doesn't matter anymore cause I know where I stand. You've been awesome, you always were. Thanks.

我好挂念着你。因为你，我做工时分神，整身伤痕类类。虽然非常想你，但是我不能一错再错。我是时候清醒了。没有你的日子原来是这种感觉的。虽然好不开心，但是是时候习惯了。好好照顾自己，达成目标！祝你好运！

To whom it may concern

Once again, the pain is back, right through my heart, never gonna heal. Thank God you were there for me last night, or else I really won't know what to do. Thanks for not giving up on me and I'm really grateful that you were always there for me when I needed someone, yes you. Spent many hours crying and thinking last night, yet nothing came into my mind. I felt lost, nothing he said went into my brain. I feel like I've disappointed everyone. 我做了那么多东西，他有心灵吗？我为他而伤心难过他懂吗？难道为了一个我爱的人做那么多事是错的吗？我太愚蠢了。以为告诉他我想永远和在一起，就会让他以为我是最好的，但我错了。就是因为他知道我不会离开他，所以他从来不怕。人都会走错步的。就像我一样，你也走错了那一步，所以今天会搞成这样。我不想在把错误放在我自己身上了，因为从头开始，根本不是我的错。This time out came at the right time because I really need time on my own, not to forget, but to think. Everything which has happened is causing me insomnias every night, fear of knowing what you are doing and heart throbbing experiences. Like I said, go think about it. Who do you really love, whether is it already the past or now or the future. Am I the person you want to be with for life? If no, then it's time to move on with life. Move on and find the right one for you. Take care of yourself when I'm not there. And one more thing, may you close your sales soon.

Best Regards,

Jeolyn

值得？

你值得我为你做那么多东西吗?你值得我为你流那么多眼泪吗？你值得我为你伤心难过吗?我自己也想知道答案。我觉得我好愚蠢。为什么我要为了跟你在一起，而牺牲那么多呢？你到底值不值得我这么做？为什么我要为了一颗树放弃整个森林呢？我突然觉得好无奈，好乱。到底我因该怎么做？我不想这样对你的，但是我别武选择。因为我这样做，才能保护自己，才能骗我自己我什么都不知道。那该多好。我好累，真的好累了。我们之间的事不是那么容易解决的。再见。

Gonna work my life away. Really need to earn during the holidays or I'll have to eat grass. We won't have time for each other anymore. It's tough. Everything has changed ever since that incident. There ain't much I wish to know from you because I'd rather choose not to know. I don't want to get hurt time and time again. It's best if I avoided. Give me a break.

遥远的距离。