Jeo's New Year Resolution

Top 10 list of Jeolyn's New Year Resolution

1) WORLD PEACE, No more slashings
2) Give and Take
3) No more quarrels
3) Do well in school when school reopens
4) Study hard
5) Appreciate and love people around me
6) Cut down on both unhealthy habits
7) Spend more time with my family
8) Cut down on shopping and save up the money
9) My own DSLR camera
10) Last but not least, BAGG.

Today marks the last day of 2010, and guess what, I'll be spending it at Bliss, not enjoying, but working. Three years in a row, I've never officially counted down outside with my friends and loved ones. It's getting kinda boring having to work on special occassions all the time whereas others get to enjoy themselves, but double pay so yah. By the end of 2011, I'm gonna accomplish everything on my list. Happy Advance New Year People!

Sorry for hurting you so much, i'm really very sorry.

I'm not looking forward to the New Year. Heart-brokened ttm.

Ohkay, what now?

♥ ACK

My life has been downright awesome for the past few weeks! For now,work has been removed from my dictionary and instead, playing and enjoying is the only thing I can think of. No wonder I've been feeling so broke lately and yah, I've really overspent big time this month:( No more shopping for the next two months. Gonna really save up! December is going to end in a blink of an eye, the start of a new year, the start of something new. I'm going to do up my new year resolution soon! Many many things I want to do in the upcoming new year! OMG! WHANAILHJ!

"You never fail to make me smile. ack."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

I'm literally rotting at home on a Saturday afternoon. Whatever it is, first things first, Happy Birthday Daddy! Hope you enjoyed the small celebration, Steamboat! Naise! I'm the only one in the family who had two bowls of rice and now I'm bloated, seriously. Secondly, I'm going to town to meet shithead! And might probably be meeting Santa later in the night for dessert? HAHA! I don't know! How awesome would it be if I was able to live my life like this. I dread working naow. I'd rather spend my time at home, like serious shiat. Watch your attitude people. I don't deserve to be treated like "that" at work. I needa break, a break from work, a break from everything. How I wish I could leave Singapore right this moment... If only..

Somehow I'm looking forward to Christmas, having to exchange presents and happiness with my loved ones. The thought of seeing others smile actually brightens up my day :) As usual, will be working at Bliss instead of going out to have fun. Whatever it is, I believe I will still have fun celebrating with my colleagues :) All I want for Christmas is you!

Ohkay fine. I admit that I'm a jerk, a fucking jerk. I don't deserve anyone. I deserve to be left alone, all by myself. Fuck all these stress and tears. I'm going bonkers soon.

HOW?!

Letting fate deciding my decision is bullshit. The decision lies in my hands now. And I really don't know what I can and should do. I've never felt like this before. The feeling is fucked up, big time. All I can do is cry, cry and cry. But I myself know, crying can't solve the problem. But sadly, whenever I think about it, tears just flow down my cheeks like there is no tomorrow. Had a chat with my mother and I told her about it. Whatever is happening to me and is going to happen. She told me to think through about my decision. Someone told me this, "Whatever your decision is, just promise me you'll be happy and you'll never regret." How can I be happy? I'm really on the verge of breaking down. If only I could split myself into two, if only. What should I do????

DILEMMA!

I don't know if I should be happy or upset. Many things have been happening in my life lately and it really screwed up my whole entire life. I'm so sick and tired of everything. What should I do now? I'm in a dilemma. If only I have the courage to end everything once and for all, but sadly, I can't let go. I'm not going to brood over this already. I'll let fate decide, I'll let God make a decision for me. To whoever it may concern, give me a break. Seriously, FML.

Prove you wrong!

I don't know why but this time I'm really determined to do well in school. I've yet to skip or partial yet though my friends are really influential. I feel that I've became more hardworking and disciplined this time round and I'm really proud of myself! It's rather amazing how I can be like this and I feel really happy for myself especially seeing my daily grades improving week by week. Though some facilitators are really strict and the grade they give me are like shit, I'll still work for it with my determination. I'll overcome all the thoughts of partialling and skipping school! I know I can do this! I'm determined to study every Sunday from this week onwards! I'm gonna prove everyone who looked down on me wrong! I'm gonna start studying for the upcoming ut in two months time! Jeolyn, you can do this! Keep up the good work, you deserve a pat on your back and a time out to relax and chill this saturday! From now onwards, I'm gonna pamper myself and reward myself with a day out with my ex classmates! SHIOK!

I'm feeling so lost

Never felt so devastated before. The war I fought with myself last night was horrible. I had to bring up all my courage to tell you how I feel. Tears flowed down my face like a faulty faucet. I can't stop it from flowing. You were the one who pulled me out from the dark but also the one who decided to throw me back down there alone. I'm tired of going through all these alone. I may be strong, but not as strong as you think I am. I'm sorry that my feelings have faded, but I can't help it. I gave you the chances you ask for, I've given you everything, but I can't seem to get what I want. I'm sorry, but it's too late to turn back time. You've done so much to hurt me, I can never forget all these. When you promised me last night that you'll move on if I leave, my heart hurt so much and I don't know why. Coming 2 years, I just can't bear to let you go. God, tell me what I should do will you?

Bad girl gone good!

School has been so stressful lately. All the lessons, the tests and deadlines for assignments. I feel so fucking stressful nao! Operating System today, made my week even worst. But since he gave me an A last week, I shall work towards another A this week! I feel like a good girl this semester! Have yet to partial or skip school and if possible, I will not do it unless I have my dental appointment which I can't change the dates. Dman screwed up. Whatever it is, I'm determined to strive for better results this semester and I'm going to prove it to everyone! JIAYOU JEOLYN!

Braces Girl

I'm officially Braces Girl. It's painful but what to do? For beauty, everything is worth it! Have to tolerate all the pain coming my way though I feel really terrible now. Horrible, terribly in pain!
It's hot pink! Fucking cool right! I love it soooo much :) Hope everything goes well and hope the pain will stop asap! Harry Potter, here I come :)

In short, last nights outing wasn't very exciting but overall, it was still fun with those people around! They never fail to make me laugh! Went Nana for the first time and Mizu Mizu too! Made new friends and they were all so nice and friendly :) Didn't get drunk as I promised myself! I'm a good girl and I've got my limits! Don't know what the fuck did I eat which has caused me diahrrea when I woke up. My stomach feels so painful now! Oh yah, the wound in my mouth from the extraction is bleeding :( Pain Pain!!!!!! ALAMAK! WHY LIKE THAT!!!

Pretty Jeolyn!

I'm in so much pain now! Bad decision to put braces! But I shall not regret since I'm already halfway there and I've gone through so much pain! After all the pain, I'll be pretty so it's gonna be so worth it! Pretty pretty! Gonna have a perfect set of teeth in maybe 3 years time? Can't wait for time to pass and be PRETTY JEOLYN! Love me people for being pretty and nice :) HEHE! I Like! (Y)

I'mma be braces girl next thursday :)

SHAME SHAME!

What's with people sitting with their knees against the sits in front of them? Having long legs does not mean you have the rights to do that. It's fucking unconfortable for the person sitting infront of you if you didn't realise! You think only your legs are long? My legs are long too but I don't do that to other because I put myself in other people's shoes! Fucking uncomfortable trip from Hougang to Woodlands. Call yourself a RP student, shame on you! Lovey dovey on the bus somemore. Hopefull you'll appear on stomp soon! Shan't let this incident spoil my mood! Though I'm in great uncomfort and pain now, I'll be enjoying myself tonight! I can't wait yaw!

Iphone 4

Jailbreaking is so annoying for goodness sake! I really want to pull my hair off my head! I don't mind being bald you see! Since I'm going to be toothless tomorrow, why keep the hair, right? It's taking me hours doing this shit and I'm really tired of waiting. It's super frustrating can! I'm studying now, suprisingly and of course checking on the stupid phone every one minute to see if it's done yet. Craving for red bean potong ice cream because I bought three home for myself just now, but I already ate one! Baby will kill me if he finds out! No more good girl already :( But I know my baby still loves meeeeeeeeeee! I'm jealous of myself, LAUGH OUT LOUDSSS! Chey, so proud!
Where you Where you Where you??? I miss you, you know mahhhhxzxzxzz?

Who's the lucky one huh?

Let's start with some beautiful photos :)

Been sick for the past few days and the guy above never stopped nagging about what food I can eat and what I can't! Kept nagging non stop like a grandfather! But I love it the way he does it because this proves that he loves me! People out there, don't get jealous k! He is one of a kind! A boyfriend hard to find! So whoever who chose to leave him in the past, please don't regret now and come begging for him because it's pointless! He loves me only, right? HAHA! Like so confident uh! Who knows he might leave me the next day! 0.o Anyways, life has been awesome lately, especially with him around,duh. And not forgetting, I have overspent this month, which means no more shopping after payday:( Never mind! Baby say will buy things for me! HEHE! I'm so fucking greedy! WAHAHAHAH! But baby doesn't mind so I shall be thick-skinned! 女孩子是要疼的！You better read this my dear! Lurbes you many manyyyxzxxz!!

Chow's and friends ♥

We didn't totally screwed up for the performance last night, and suprisingly, the audiences didn't affect me much! It was super awesome! Not forgetting the appearance of Chow's and friends! They really rock my life! They were so perfect, the most perfect band ever! Gosh, the way they play, the way they perform, really made me so mesmerized, especially Ryan! Fucking awesome I swear! I'm so obsessed over Ryan now! You guys can never imagine how fucking awesome he is! Especially the solo parts, they were like jaw dropping! Perfect, everything went out so perfect for them! Sweet child of mine, awesome! I'm like their number 1 fan now can! Super fanatic! Rock on guys! ♥

Lucky Girl

I'm so in love with my new IPhone4! Can't take my hands and eyes off it! Super addictive and super awesome to own an IPhone! I'm like one lucky bitch! I'm not rich but I'm average! :) Hope Bf quickly gets a full time job and he can get his IPhone4 too!!!! Mummy told me in the morning that she is considering to go on holiday after Chinese New Year, to Gold Coast Australia :) I'm asking baby to go along too! But, that's provided he can take his leave :( Not forgetting, I'm moving to Sengkang next year before Chinese New Year! New furniture, new environment, new everything!!! I'm fucking fortunate! I Like (Y)

Pardon me for not blogging today! I'm rushing off to meet Eugene! Love you people!

HAPPY GIRL!

I've been feeling so much happier lately! Letting go whatever which is holding me back and also getting my new Iphone 4 as a birthday gift from my family! Nothing much to boast about too cause it's just another phone and I'm just another person in the world holding the Iphone. Just love my family! From now onwards, I'm going to treat them nicer and spend more time with them! And not forgetting, I'm going to spend more time with my phone and my friends now! Love you guys people!

Stressful times

In a relatopnship, it's all about trust and respecting. I can tell you that it's really hard for me to trust you because I can't even trust myself. The only thing I can do now is to respect you, to give you whatever you wish for and making sure I change into that person you love, not the me now. I've decided on so many things and I really doubt my ability of fulfilling it. But not to worry, this time, it's going to happen no matter how tough it is. Since thats the way you want it then we will play it your way. Your wish is my command. I've found support from numerous friends who can help bring me through those upcoming tough times. I'll not rely on a guy anymore, no more possessive, no more controlling! It's my life and I want to live it the way I want to! She's going to stand strong and stand alone! :)

Xiaxue's guide to life

Was watching Xiaxue's guide to life yesterday in school and I went across this video which Mike proposed to her. Gosh, when I was watching the video, I almost teared. It was so touching and romantic! Can you believe how much time he spent in preparing everything and recording the short clip of himself and flash it in the cinema! It goes like this. "Everyone wants to find someone he wants to be with for life, and I have found mine." He walked to Xiaxue and proposed to her in the cinema. That's like the most awesome thing which can happen to a girl! Imagining myself, maybe 5 or 6 years down the road, my love one propose to me. How sweet right! I'm so envy of her lah! Have I found my Mr Right? Yes, I found him. When would it be my turn!!!!! HAHA!

NO NO!

I don't know why but it really turns me off when girls camwhore with that bitchy and slutty look. I guess it's human nature that I feel this way. I seriously don't understand why people likes to take photograph of themselves like that. Its either you're pretty, or you're not. Whether you look good with that bitchy face or not, it doesn't bother anyone because you just look fugly without makeup and thats the fact. Look yourself in the mirror, I bet you'll scare the fuck out of yourself without it. I so agree that makeup can do wonders, because I myself put on makeup. But fuck, who cares because I look good in nature and not you! My friends around me look awesome with makeup but you? It's gonna be a big NONO! So why not just fuck yourself and stop smelling people's fucking butt and move on with your fucking life. Hey bitch, listen up, Fuck Your Life! What's wrong with the world man!