How to be a good girlfriend?

1. Take it slow. Don't push him to call you his girlfriend after a couple of dates. Don't start talking about marriage and children before you've even met his friends. The beginning is a precious time when you both feel like you're walking on air just because you're together. Eventually this phase will pass and you'll hit bumps in the road that will test your relationship and during those times you'll both look back to the memories from the beginning to remember why you're in it. So don't bring up any issues prematurely and make the beginning of your relationship stressful. Let it take its natural course. Cherish your time together, it's the only time this person will be new to you. That doesn't mean you should be an obsessive girlfriend and crave every second of his time. Relax. Be patient. Enjoy.
2. Be honest. While being honest to your guy is very important, to the point of being paramount, it is equally important that you are honest with yourself. If you overreact or make a mistake, you can acknowledge your error and apologize. If you're feeling vulnerable or upset, you can sort through your feelings and verbalize them to him in a non-accusing way. And the most important thing here is that you will open your feelings as much as possible. For example, if someone crushes you, tell him immediately for you two not to have problems as much as possible. 
3. Have a positive attitude. If everything you say around him is a criticism or an attack, he will not look forward to seeing you. However, you don't always have to agree with him just because he is your boyfriend. Tactfulness is a better strategy in mature relationships. No matter what, have a good sense of humor. Have inside jokes together. Be spontaneous. Be happy.
4. Make your desires, needs, and opinions known, even when they may conflict with his. You don't and shouldn't exist solely to please him. Besides, showing that you are your own person with your own needs, desires, and approach to life will keep him interested in getting to know and understand you as a person. Just remember to express yourself in way that doesn't attack anyone else's opinion or lifestyle in any way--you can be humble and outspoken at the same time.  
5. Let him live his life. If you feel entitled to all of his time and attention, learn how to not be an obsessive girlfriend. Don't be an "over protective girlfriend" let him go out without him feeling watched. Remember that he doesn't need you for everything and that you are separate people as well as a couple. When he needs some space, don't take it personally. But do make sure he knows that you are always there for him.
6. Give him gifts. When you're in a relationship it's fun to give each other small gifts. Boys love to get presents and giving him one shows that he means a lot to you. Don't overdo it though. You don't want him to think you're crazy.
7. Be yourself Don't lie to impress him, don't try to make him jealous, don't lead him on if you're not into everything. These things are wrong, and if you feel the need to do that then you don't know the meaning of a true relationship. Be honest and open with him. If the two of you are mature then you will handle it correctly.

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There you'll be

When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed to get to have you in my life

When I look back on these days
I look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am, there you'll be
And everywhere I am, there you'll be

You know you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all the strength you gave to me

Your love made me make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be

'Cause I always saw in you my light my strength
And I want to thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me, you were right there for me always

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am, there you'll be
And everywhere I am, there you'll be

There you'll be


Dedicated to my one and only babylove, Isaac Lim ♥
Thanks for not giving up on me despite what I did to hurt you. 
You've been too awesome.


Thank you baby, I love you.

The story of my life #2

Am I really born in this world to disappoint my loved ones? Am I really born in this world to make my loved ones upset all the time? Am I really born in this world just to bring unhappiness to my loved ones?

Sometimes, I just do not understand why I've such a screwed up life. Time and time again, after many promises I made to myself, I still hurt the one I love. Sometimes I wonder, why do I have to be sorry when I'm not the one at fault, when I didn't do anything wrong to cause your unhappiness. But come to think of it, you have to give and take in a relationship, no? We both gave in no matter whose fault it was. I'm thankful to you for having to swallow down all those shit just to make things better for us. I'm always the reason why we quarrel. Why? Why can't I be a better person? Why can't I just stop hurting the people around me? I realized something throughout these few days while thinking. I can be a good friend, but can never be a good girlfriend. I can do so much for someone but in the end screwing up my chances and ruining everything. Not only ruined my image in him but also ruined myself. I tried so hard but in the end, I screwed up with my own hands. I really don't know what to do anymore.

Give me some advice people. Am I in the wrong to stop the person I love fulfill his dreams? His dream since Secondary school. I feel like a jerk when I told him I didn't like it, but I really didn't mean to. Part of me feels like telling him to go ahead but the other part of me tells me not to. I really don't want to see him unhappy but I know if I didn't stop him, I'll regret. I don't want to be upset about it after he pursue his dreams. I really hope he will be happy but I just can't bring myself to tell him, "Carry on baby".

I'm in a state of dilemma now. I fucking hate everything that is coming in my way now. How can I make things better? Or rather, can I even make things better? Sometimes I just wished I never existed, maybe everyone would be happier without me around.

This post goes out to all my readers. Please give me some advice.

Babylove, would you be happier if I said, "Carry on"? If so, maybe you should just go ahead. My acknowledgement is nothing. If you would be happier this way then baby, carry on. I'll give you my blessings.

28/01/2012 Day out with boyfriend

So I met up with boyfriend just now. Headed to Macpherson cause he wanted to visit the Tamiya warehouse but sadly, we made a wasted trip down cause they were only going to resume operations today, which is Sunday. So we left and headed to our next destination, Kovan. CNY visiting at my godma's place. Before that, we headed to heartland mall to get some stuff. Been a long time since I last went there. Kovan, a place of memories with my Secondary school clique. We sat at her place for a while and headed down to Clarke Quay to meet his family for dinner. Had Japanese food at Yayoiken. The food was quite nice ah. I had the udon and the scrambled egg with chicken rice set. Price was rather reasonable too but it was slightly salty. But overall, food was good! Headed back to baby's place and on the way back, we camwhored :) Will post the pictures last! Really love hanging out with his family cause I really feel so loved. Love his sisters too cause they never fail to make me laugh. So cute uh! Went over to baby's ah ma's house to "Lou Hei" and baby was super cute! In Chinese they say "Bu bu gao sheng" but guess what he said? POOT POOT GAO SHENG! LOL!!!! Love you so much sweetheart! MEOW!

That's all folks

Toodles ~

The story of my life #1

There are many parts of my life that I want to share with you guys. Today, I want to share with you guys about what happened some time back and what happened today. This post is going to be very wordy so just ignore if you don't wish to carry on reading.

In one of my post, I mentioned that I once lost someone whom I loved dearly. So here goes.Wondering what went wrong which made me lose him? I treated him more than a friend, but less than a couple. I wanted so much to make him mine but I didn't. I gave up a million chances to get together with him. And till the day he decided to leave me, I regretted. Regretted not giving him, giving us a chance. When he disappeared for that one week, my whole mind was filled with no one else but him. Finally realizing how much he actually means to me. There was nothing I could do but to wait. The day he called me when he came back, I was filled with joy and no words could express how I felt. I missed him, so very much. We had the most wonderful memories together since then but guess what? Yes, I screwed things up. He had to leave again but this time round I was a jerk, an asshole. I promised him that I would wait for him, but I didn't. Actually I did, but during that period of time when he wasn't around, I hung out with some other guy. Knowing that I'll definitely break his heart if he finds out but I still continued. He came back three weeks later and I told him what happened. From his look, all I saw was disappointment and unhappiness. From then I know, I've failed, I've hurt the person I love most. He was magnanimous enough to forgive me and give me another chance. But time and time again, I screwed up and hurt him more and more each time. He couldn't trust me anymore. I tried my best to prove to him that I'm a changed person, that the only person I love is him. I did what I could to be a good girlfriend. I was on the way to success till today. I wasn't truthful to him. I kept something from him and he found out. Trust? I guess he can never trust me ever again. Once trust is gone, it can never come back again. I knew this from the very start. I know I had to swallow everything that is coming my way, all the doubts I get from him. All I can do is to assure him but after today, I know even assurance won't make him trust me ever again. I don't blame him for anything. The only person I can blame is myself. I should have cherished all the chances given to me, appreciate how he can swallow everything and accept me for who I am. But I know, it's too late to say all these cause what's done can never be undone. From today onwards, I'll just tell myself to be positive and accept all the criticism and false accusations coming my way. I'll not tie him down anymore cause I have no rights to. I'll never ask him not to leave me anymore because I know I do not have any rights to do so. Whatever it is, as long as he is happy with it, I'll have no objections. I've lost my stand, I've lost myself. This story of my life is going to change from this moment. 

If you're reading this, I would like to take this chance to apologize to you in front of all my readers. I'm sorry for being such a jerk. Sorry that I broke your heart time and time again. Sorry I didn't cherish the chances you gave me. Sorry that I made empty promises all the time. And most importantly, I'm sorry you gave me everything you had, you gave me all your love but being the person you love most, I broke your heart time and time again. I really had the intention to make things work out again, to reassure you that I've changed, but I had to screw it up again. Whatever which is going to happen in the future, I really hope you never regretted being with me. I'm sorry I can't be the girl of your dreams. I'm sorry you have to go through all these shit time and time again. I know you're already at the limit, but please, I really need one last chance to prove myself. Just this one time. I'll treasure and cherish this time and not disappoint you ever again. Seems like I'm a little thick skinned to ask you for one more chance. I'll leave it up to you. You call the shots now. Just know that I've never stopped loving you and I don't want to end this.

So people, I've shared the story of my life. Never do things which would hurt your loved ones. Cherish and treasure them. Shower them with all your love and make them feel that you actually do deserve to be trusted. Do not live in a life full of regrets just like me cause you'll not feel good at all. 

Please don't judge me. 

My current life

So I've been really busy and stressed up lately. And yes, the only reason that could cause me all these shit would be Final Year Project. I doubt I'm the only one feeling this way. The schedule given to us is really tight. Everything is happening concurrently. UT1 and then UT2. Now FYP submission and UT3. Seriously. Students are humans too. You can't expect us students to be able to take up ?all these stress. No wonder so many students commit suicide cause of the stress given to them. That's one of the reason why I hate being a student. Fucking brainless to squeeze everything together and expecting us to perform right? WHERE GOT TIME?! And which school will require students to complete 2 Final Year Projects and also expect students to clear 40 CE Points to graduate? SERIOUSLY. Enough of ranting cause it wouldn't help either.

Shall talk about something happy instead. So I cabbed back home from baby's place just now after trying to finish up my codes and I met a really nice taxi driver. Though he can't stop babbling but I definitely enjoyed his company. HAHA!  He is the first taxi driver I know who allows people to owe taxi fares. Like wtf? What if the passenger doesn't return you the money? What if the passenger choose not to answer your phone calls? He is so damn nice ahhhh! And he even offered to wait for me at my block's carpark till I enter the lift cause it was already past midnight. Seriously eh. Which taxi driver would ever do that????? I'm so glad I met such a nice uncle!

And baby definitely made my day too! I miss him so much already but I guess he is sleeping like a log now! Love you sweetheart! <3

CNY DAY 2

Headed to my ah ma's house for brunch as usual. Got to say her Tomyam steamboat is the best! I was eyeing at the fish but ended up spamming a whole lot of chicken instead. She marinated the chicken till it taste damn good.  The best chicken I've ever ate! Secret recipe for marination : Potato flour/starch! I thought everyone uses corn flour to marinate stuff but actually potato flour is ten times better! Try it! Went home after that cause we had visitors coming over. Left to meet boyfriend and his family after that and gave a miss to my uncle's place. Went a few places for visiting with boyfriend! Love his relatives so much as they warmly welcomed me to their place! They are all so nice and sweet to me! HEHE! So happy ^^

Picture time!

Super cool fish tank found at my grand's place! Spot the prawn and NEMOOOO! So cute rightttt!

Steamboat timeee!

SISSYYYY  ♥

MUMSIE AND DADDYYYY!  ♥

HUBBY  ♥

Toodles~

CNY DAY 1

Today marks the first day of Chinese New Year. As usual, we headed over to my grand's place for brunch and next to Bedok for visiting. Since my dad is the oldest, his brothers came over to our place for dinner. Boyfriend joined us! I'm super happy cause this is the first CNY together and I know there would be more coming right baby? We played mahjong before they arrived and baby and I won! All thanks to baby's luck! HUAT AH! Love you the most baby boy! I'm glad baby enjoyed himself and wasn't feeling uncomfortable with all the unfamiliar faces! We are one family already hubby! ^^ Took many photos today! Enjoy! Do stay tuned for tomorrow's blog post!

Brunch prepared by my grands :)

Sissy and Benny ^^

My handsome boyfriend ♥

Okay, this photo damn cock, IKR.

♥♥♥

Toodles

RUDDY + BROWNIE

These are my pet rabbits! I guess not everyone knows or have seen them so I'm here to share it with you guys! Sometimes I just find them freaking annoying cause they like to make a lot of noises especially Brownie! But I have to admit that brownie is really cute :)

Pictures speaks a thousand words

RUDDY!

BROWNIE ^^

Cute righhhtttttt! I know :) 

Toodles and stay tuned for tomorrow's post people!